I dont know how to start this.
I don't know how i should say what i have in mind. It is so untangible and unexplainable.
It is like watching the waves on the sea. A rise and fall. A fall which comes with the promise of a rise. A rise which tells us that i am as fleeting and momentary as the fall itself.
I have always tried not to judge people and specially not myself. I am the worst judge when it comes to others. But this reputation of mine has no influence on facts that make the truth glare right back at me.
I realised today, that whatever happens, happens for the good. I don't mean "whatever God does is for our good"... What i mean is that there is good in everything that happens to us.
I love my friends.
I love all my friends in college.
I want them all to know it.
To be fair, i know i can't prove it to them. I know that perhaps they already know it. But to be frank, i can NEVER make them realise how important they actually are to me.
I've known most of them for about an year now. It is not a small duration in which to have fights. But believe it or not, i never did. Now don't say that we fight with those we love the most. We don't.
If what you mean by it is that we fight with only those whom we are absolutely frank with, then say it. I would agree with you.
But i still never fought with them.
I have noticed some things that i might not appreciate chez-elles, but their goodness out weighs all of that.
i realised today that i am actually running out of love because i cant love them enough. Because every fine day, they give me a new reason to love them afresh. Because every fine day, they give me a new reason to love myself. Because every fine day, they erase from my mind a part of my prejudice against girls. Because every fine day, they just be themselves. No pretense. No facade. they are just themselves.
i seriously don't know how to say what i feel. So i'll stop here.
But if u know what i am talking about, please feel free to comment.
Love
Molu
